Morning Check-in

[Dreamy]

Wow @Till23,that's amazing and such an achievement. I'm glad you were able to do that before starting the radiotherapy. 

It's ok if you haven't quite met you weekly intentions, there's always next time. The fact that you are still doing things is fantastic and I'm proud of you for that ♥️.

I don't spend too much time in the sun as it's just too bright. But when it warms up a bit I am going to hopefully take Casper walking. Been stuck inside lately as I have covid but it's mostly been raining and cold anyway. 

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

Hey, how are you feeling tonight?

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde hello sweet, I'm actually very nervous tonight. How about you? 

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

Had Bible study tonight and was a bit brave and got home, wrote today's poem and sent it to the group. Can't say I like being vulnerable, given that some don't know my history and don't know what I live with because of my faith. 

Do you want to talk about your nervousness?

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde it can be so hard to be vulnerable, proud of you for being brave sweet ♥️.

It's just been a bit of a rough day today and feelings and emotions have been all over the place. I've found myself so overwhelmed at times and it's been a struggle to calm down and slow things down. 

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

It's like the mountain climb is just getting taller... that was me yesterday...

Would it help to go through the 3-3-3?

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde it definitely feels that way. 

At the moment I'm struggling to focus on anything. I'm gonna try to get some sleep i think. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. 

I hope you can have a restful night sweet. Sending you hugs ♥️ 

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

Goodnight sweetheart

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde night sweet ♥️

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde so it's 1.30am and I dozed off for a few minutes before waking up having a panic attack. Feeling so alone and scared right now, I've grabbed my avant-garde plushie and  I'm trying this grounding exercise to see if I can calm down and try to go back to sleep. 

3 things I can see. 

●There's a lamp on my bedside table, it's purple and can be moved to direct the light where you need it but it's loud when you move it around. 

●The suncatcher hanging on my bed, it has rainbow coloured beads on it and reflects rainbows when the light shines on it. 

●Dog collars hanging on my bed, 4 of them which belonged to each of my dogs that I've lost. There's a pink one, purple one, pink camouflage print and a yellow one. 

3 things I can hear. 

●Magpie outside which should be sleeping but it seems to be confused as to what the time is so it's singing away. 

●The rain which has been mostly constant but gets heavier at times, I enjoy listening to it though. 

●Casper breathing in my ear as he is snuggled up next to me on my pillow with his wet paws after going out to the toilet. 

3 parts of my body that I'm moving. 

●My toes, I'm scrunching them up then relaxing them and I can feel them moving on my sheets. 

●My hand as I'm squeezing my nee doh cube, it's rather hard and cold so it takes alot to squeeze it. 

●My neck as I try to stretch some of the tension out in my body, so I'm rolling my head around. 

Hope you and @NightFury are sleeping peacefully. Really looking forward to that morning check in. Time to try to get some more sleep hopefully. Night ♥️