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[Sophia1]

More bad news....

when does this end...

I am just so tired of being me...

who is me anymore?

I had a new specialist examine me and I cried....I felt so embarrassed...humiliated...the tears just came from nowhere...

I have been watching some of the episodes of the series of ...you can't ask that...or whatever it is called...

a couple of them have really affected me...on top of everything else that is happening...

I think I am degeneralised or dissociated or both or whatever again...

I should not even be writing on here..

[outlander]

@Sophia1 💖

[Teej]

😖😡😒😣😖🤬🤯

sometimes I don’t get being human. I hate being me!!! 

[Snowie]

Days like this I wish I wasn't here. I hate my Mental Illness.

[Maggie]

Hospital sucks. I have failed.

[Margot]

Sounds like things are incredibly difficult for you today @Maggie Sometimes accepting help can leave us feeling like we've failed, even though the ability to know when we need help and to reach out at those times, is a huge strength. Look after yourself today 🐼

[greenpea]

I have been going to a mindfullness class which has brought up all kinds of things from the past which had been hidden away and buried ..... the course has made it all bubble up to the surface like an old wound reopening. I figure basically I have a choice either use my mindfullness teachings and say 'Oh that's the old I am a bad mother story again' etc or deal with the past head on .... I want to face it head on .... I want to say so much now that so much has been unpacked and remembered. I need to say it. 

I been speaking with my pdoc and she thinks that I would benefit from seeing a psychologist as well to help me through this. As verbalizing all of what has happened in my past will be so, so hard ..... I am nervous about what will happen but trust my pdoc.... Anyway I just wanted to say this out in the SANE universe.

Please no replys. I cannot talk properly atm. It is not that I don't care about people I do I just cannot talk. xxxx

[BlueBay]

Feeling lonely isolated abandoned 

memories of trauma on my mind

who am I 

what do I want in life

i have no idea 

life sucks big time 

[eudemonism]

The weather is bad...

Unfortunately I cannot control the weather... And unfortunately I feel that the weather controls me...

The weather is good...

When I feel good... I forget to give thanks to the might of the weather system that passes me bye... When I feel good.. There is no clouds in the sky... Blessed be the weather in all its might...

Eude

[eudemonism]

Unhappy about the side effects