My Story and where to from here.. (very personal)

[outlander]

@MDT perhaps its a good idea to give a helpline a call or talk to your family. they sound concerned about you. your not an embarrassment or a dissapointment

[TAB]

night @MDT 

[MDT]

nite @TAB I will try to do something but not sure what yet..

@outlander I feel like they won't listen... Going to hold off on any of it until tomorrow's appointment. Thanks for both of you helping

[TAB]

try and get some sleep @MDT 

[Sam3]

Hey @MDT @I’m pretty sure I speak on behalf of fellow forumites in saying you’ve not disappointed anyone. I really identify with many of your sentiments so that makes me an “embarrassment “ too & many times I’ve wished I could “just be like everyone else”. I’ve certainly felt in turmoil & desperate (& I agree that hospital can be boring but it can be necessary if safety becomes the priority). You’ll be able to talk all this through at your 2 appointments. You’re not alone in your pain & anguish. We are listening. You will get through this.

[MDT]

Thanks @Sam3 i appreciate that

@outlander @oceangirl @Sam3 @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Zoe7 @TAB @utopia @Faith-and-Hope

I have woken up. I feel like wanting to go back to sleep. My psychiatrist is this morning.

I feel really apprehensive about EVERYTHING.

Last night i was upset about all of it. Nothing seems enough.
Mum saw me getting a bit upset last night but i really got upset after she left.

I keep having visualisations of different things.

I will raise all of this with the psychiatrist today.

Im really terrified of everything.

My dad sounded almost fed up with me last night. Mum is exhausted..
I think i have disappointed them enough after all this time.

Anyway. Need to drag myself out of bed and eat something. Then go to appointment

[MDT]

@BryanaCamp

[Shaz51]

walking with you @MDT 

let me know how you go today xx

big breath my friend , having  something to eat will be good and to drink water

[MDT]

Thank you @Shaz51
😞 its so hard

[Shaz51]

I know , all we can do is one step at a time my friend @MDT 

mr shaz rang up MI  to make an appt two weeks ago and no appt yet