12-07-2018 05:06 PM
See I can talk and share naturally about life with all you women here, without limiting it to makeup, fashion, food, boys and nappies. It has meant that I can relate more easily to the girly females I meet in real life. Without expectation, and letting go some of my old hurts, because I now feel female enough, my way.
13-07-2018 07:40 AM
7.30am. Another long sleep since 8.30pm last night. More troubled dreams. A flared up mouth ulcer on waking. But only small signs of those head pains. I think that might be related to getting such a lot of sleep yesterday (most of the day and the night before). Have been feeling depressed (part of the reason for the huge sleeping yesterday). And, since my last video was completed, bored and restless within the confines of my life (but no motivation to start a new video yet). Without video making, my life seems empty and full of long blank spaces of time.
On a more positive note, the dental clinic rang yesterday and changed one of my appointments to today instead of later. So the first of my many fillings should be done this afternoon. Glad the extensive repairs on my mouth are about to start happening. I might even get to visit my friend again afterwards. So not such a bad day ahead.
13-07-2018 08:02 AM
@Mazarita Hi Mazzy 'bored with the confines of your life' yes I can relate to that but also know that is where I am safest unfortunately. Good luck with the dentist today and I hope you are well enough to see your friend afterwardsmxxxx.
13-07-2018 08:02 AM
13-07-2018 08:10 AM
@greenpea, yes I am safest within the confines of my life too. The boredom and restlessness seems a bipolar symptom to me. I remember it all too well and for many years, when less effectively medicated. In general I hate routine, seems to sap all the life out of life. Yet routine is supposed to be 'good for us'. Dammit.
I hope your day is great, lil pea.
@CheerBear, I have other video projects in mind but the thought of starting one just makes me weary at the moment. What a pity there's no immediate appointment with the GP for you. Hope that comes up very quickly. I'd say take the meds anyway. I'm sure you would wake up if there was noise happening in the house. Many people with children go 'out like a light', I imagine, with no dangerous effect. I understand how hypervigilance might seem like a natural state though. I feel it myself to some degree. Great that you have an enjoyable adventure with the LF ahead. Hope it's a lovely day for you all.
13-07-2018 08:19 AM
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