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[Dimity]

Hoping you're OK @Patches59 . 

High winds tomorrow.  Stay safe.

[Patches59]

Going through rough patch @Dimity 

Early yesterday afternoon got text message saying I’d get phone call shortly regarding guided recovery, I’m still waiting for phone call.

message from management this morning.  Due to weather forecast everything cancelled and everyone advised to stay at home plus prepare for possible loss of power

one thing on top of another

[Dimity]

Hope you hear soon re guided recovery @Patches59 .

Thanks for reminding me to charge my phone. I'm nervous of damage to our big tree.

Hope nothing else is going wrong for you. 

I had a trying day yesterday.

[Patches59]

My body and nervous system not back to its usual atm.  Normal reactiions and feelings for me, goes back decades.

my phone had blocked number the person was phoning on regarding guided recovery.  She left message on phone answering plus sent me email.  Email sent as per info in her email.  Auto reply received from sane, might not get reply for couple days.  6 weeks time I will be back in hospital, wondering if have done right thing.

winds picking up here with top of neighbours colourbond fence vibrating at times.  Sun is out and is pleasant outside.

[Dimity]

@Patches59 the wind is strong here and a rainband is on the way so I came straight back from physio rather than picking anything up in the big shopping centre.

Is there any particular reason you're second guessing the guided recovery? It seems a positive step to me. And you could always ask their advice re timing, whether to start support before the procedure or wait until afterwards. 

I wonder if it's better to aim for a new normal, an acceptable way of being, rather than try to reclaim feelings of decades ago. I think that's what I hope for myself.

[Patches59]

@Dimity   I’m not “trying to reclaim feelings of decades ago”.

I have various auto reactions to different situations that originated decades ago.  Auto reactions that, sometimes, have connection to my flashbacks.  When I’m triggered my auto reactions kick in.

Be nice to have some knowledge on how to deal with them etc.  last 2yrs with psychologist, tired of hearing that my reactions are understandable based on my past.

I’d like to be left alone for awhile

[Dimity]

@Patches59 apologies, I misunderstood you I thought you said you last felt normal decades ago. 

[Patches59]

@Dimity there have been different times where response to things I’ve done and/or said have left me feeling I’m being told off and/or excluded.  Responses that have hurt and left me feeling upset.

 I wish you all the best with your piano playing, activities with the social group, your gardening, knitting (plus all other activities you are involved in and/or enjoy doing).  

by now, I’m done!

[Dimity]

Hello @Patches59 .

I'm so sorry I seem to have habitually upset you. I've always tried to meet you where you're at, and never intentionally criticised or excluded you. I tried sometimes to make positive suggestions. I've respected your wishes when you've asked me not to communicate with you in your gardens thread and now in this thread, although my preference would have been to try to support you in your feelings of rejection and abandonment and reassure you that you're heard and respected.

I'm sad you won't be continuing your schema work with your psychologist.  I've just been asked to complete a schema assessment myself. Perhaps it will help inform me of how and why I've antagonised both you and a close relative, despite my efforts. I know for myself how the need for self-preservation can morph to resentment and anger..

I wish you well with your chronic pain journey, as difficult and challenging as it is, and I hope and trust Sonny and Luna continue to bring you joy.

@moderator please check I'm not  infringing community guidelines, and reach out to @Patches59 in her distress.

@tyme 

[Patches59]

@Dimity in the garden thread the only thing I said was I didn’t want to discuss or hear anything to do with gardening.  I never asked for you to not talk about other topics.  Perfect example of what Ive referred to. Tired of saying things and reading reply that doesn’t align with what I’ve said. This is not first time Ive provided clarity over the confusion about the garden thread.  I don’t understand why this miscommunication issue keeps being raised

I have never said I will not be continuing schema therapy.  I have chosen to work with a different psychologist due to things she has done which has resulted in me loosing trust in her.

as for other things mentioned in above post, commenting and providing exact details will not resolve anything and possibly cause you to become upset.  I feel sorry for you that you feel situations have been as you believe they have been.

i was feeling quite calm and relaxed until reading about reply.  Going to find something to do, been left feeling frustrated and annoyed atm

i fail to understand why choosing to explain to you why I find myself not comfortable continuing chatting with you has led you to decide to involve moderators.