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[Dimity]

Hoping you're OK @Patches59 . 

High winds tomorrow.  Stay safe.

[Patches59]

Going through rough patch @Dimity 

Early yesterday afternoon got text message saying I’d get phone call shortly regarding guided recovery, I’m still waiting for phone call.

message from management this morning.  Due to weather forecast everything cancelled and everyone advised to stay at home plus prepare for possible loss of power

one thing on top of another

[Dimity]

Hope you hear soon re guided recovery @Patches59 .

Thanks for reminding me to charge my phone. I'm nervous of damage to our big tree.

Hope nothing else is going wrong for you. 

I had a trying day yesterday.

[Patches59]

My body and nervous system not back to its usual atm.  Normal reactiions and feelings for me, goes back decades.

my phone had blocked number the person was phoning on regarding guided recovery.  She left message on phone answering plus sent me email.  Email sent as per info in her email.  Auto reply received from sane, might not get reply for couple days.  6 weeks time I will be back in hospital, wondering if have done right thing.

winds picking up here with top of neighbours colourbond fence vibrating at times.  Sun is out and is pleasant outside.

[Dimity]

@Patches59 the wind is strong here and a rainband is on the way so I came straight back from physio rather than picking anything up in the big shopping centre.

Is there any particular reason you're second guessing the guided recovery? It seems a positive step to me. And you could always ask their advice re timing, whether to start support before the procedure or wait until afterwards. 

I wonder if it's better to aim for a new normal, an acceptable way of being, rather than try to reclaim feelings of decades ago. I think that's what I hope for myself.

[Patches59]

@Dimity   I’m not “trying to reclaim feelings of decades ago”.

I have various auto reactions to different situations that originated decades ago.  Auto reactions that, sometimes, have connection to my flashbacks.  When I’m triggered my auto reactions kick in.

Be nice to have some knowledge on how to deal with them etc.  last 2yrs with psychologist, tired of hearing that my reactions are understandable based on my past.

I’d like to be left alone for awhile

[Dimity]

@Patches59 apologies, I misunderstood you I thought you said you last felt normal decades ago.