idk what to call it ???

[Autumn_Leaf]

This is rlly hard to voice 

im feeling so super overwhelmed rn and so anxious and done 

i feel so lost and afraid 

I feel so insecure about myself and my body I feel so horrible and I have zero self esteem and zero self worth 

im so worthless and a failure i hate myself im feeling so unregulated and so done with everything I feel so hurt and Idk what to do nobody understands whats going on and idk I just ahhhh 

[Autumn_Leaf]

does anyone know how to deal with loud ED thoughts and bad self critical voices and how to feel less overwhelmed ?

[AuntGlow]

Hello @Autumn_Leaf, 

Here with you, thank you so much for sharing. 

It sounds like you're experiencing some really big feelings right now, which must be so overwhelming... I have been in this thought loop many times, so please know you're not alone. 

I know you mentioned insecurity, the idea of failure, and feeling lost/afraid... would you like to share more about this at all? (It's okay if not, but wondering if giving some love to these underlying feelings might help a bit here? 🥰)

I have noticed that when I feel this way, my inner child needs lot of nurturing and reassurance. Do you have a safe person who could provide some affirmations and co-regulate with you? 

If not, what might be self-soothing right now, or conversely, what might help you to release some of the excess anxious energy?

Here to talk things out with you, okay? We'll get through this together. 

Also, I might tag in the lovely @creative_writer, who I think could provide some really lovely insight and support - only if you both have the space though. 💛

[Autumn_Leaf]

tysm
im just feeling numb and hopeless and done
and unworthy and afraid and i don't have anyone to go to im sorry

[AuntGlow]

I hear you, @Autumn_Leaf. 

That sounds so, so tough... 😔

When was the last time you noticed things felt lighter, more hopeful, or like you were worthy? 💛

[Autumn_Leaf]

forever 

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow thanks for the tag. @Autumn_Leaf I’ve only started my ED recovery journey recently. I’m not sure if I can provide you with a concrete answer. Having supports around me like my psych, dietician, GP and psychiatrist have been helpful. I’ve been working on challenging self-talk, I know this can sound sort of fake at first, it still sounds fake to me, but it gets easier. It can help trying to picture soothing the younger version of yourself.

My ED is heavily trauma related, I’ve been working on healing the underlying issues.

Otherwise self care can help, but that also takes time to develop. Butterfly Foundation are an amazing resource if you need to speak to someone

[AuntGlow]

I hear you @Autumn_Leaf... 

That's so incredibly tough to sit with. Feeling intensely critical of ourselves can be such a painful, all-consuming experience. Please know that your body deserves so much love from you right now. I know this might be hard to believe in this moment so it's okay if you can't connect to that space. What if we connected to a sense of compassion and understanding for how you're feeling? 💛

Also, yes! Butterfly Foundation is a great resource @creative_writer. 

What are your thought on reaching out there @Autumn_Leaf?