Hi. I'm a senior & new to all this & have many issues

[iwish57]

Not knowing what to do anymore. Have been alienated from all my biological grandchildren & a son & daughter, from no fault of mine. Its so heartbreaking..

My own upbringing was a nightmare & I never thought it would happen with my own children. My son has made some very cruel & harsh comments that I can't forget.  Have a phone full of messages from him..  I gave these children life yet they have taken mine away.......

I moved interstate so that I could be close to them all & watch my grandchildren grow up. 

I suffer with BPD, Chronic Complex PTSD, Anxiety, Acute Panic & Social Interactions Disorders.

Having no friends around makes it even harder. At times I think I'm going crazy, sitting in my room & talking to myself. Since moving I have found it really impossible to get any professional help, that doesn't cost a fortune. Where I live nobody cares. Is it because of my age that I get fobbed off ?

[holdinghope5]

Welcome to the forums @iwish57 . Thank you for sharing a little about yourself and what you are experiencing at the moment.

It takes a lot of courage to reach out. As hard as things are, we want you to know you are not alone.

Have you seen SANE's Guided Recovery Program? This program is free of charge. You can learn more about it here: https://www.sane.org/referral

We look forward to reading other members' insights as they respond to your post.

[Justhere]

Hi @iwish57 you can access free phycologist, via remote therapy. This may help you.